My saddest part 17-19

Dear God
It really hurt, it really hurt, can you feel just like I feel..?
I hurt my self by hurting you,
I hope I have one more chance, to fix all of it, may I have it?
Please„
Please God,
I didn’t mean to brought shame to the family„
Please just one more chance,
I wish for one more chance,
God, I need Your miracle„
Give me very last chance,
To prove to my family„
To fix the bad things from me„
To make them proud of me„
Or all I need is dead?
Then I saved my family for the ashamed that I made to my family„
God, You can do anything„
I believe You can do anything„

Saat ini bisakah waktu berhenti?
Semua terasa berat, tolong beri aku waktu untuk bernafas,
Aku berharap ini cuma mimpi burukku„
tolong siapapun bangunkan aku dari mimpi buruk ini„

Farewell to everythings I ever wanted and needed.
Farewell to everyone I love, everyone I ever care„
Now I’m gone and I’m still moving on, no more memories inside my head, and you know what? I feel dead„
Farewell to you guys, it’s only for 2 years, I hope I’ll make better, and then we can together just like yesterday„
I really hate to say goodbye, but I know someday we can say hellow again!
Maybe yesterday we said hellow, but now I say goodbye for a while„
I’ll be missing you„